01-16-2010, 01:27 PM
Sucks right now.
I have been medically retired from the navy for 10 years. Let me tell you, retirement isnt all it is cracked up to be. I really have no purpose in my life. it is hard to stay busy and satisfied. I tried many volunteer things. the most recent being the Fire Dept. it just isnt for me. it is interesting but im just not committed and i think as a fire fighter you should be.
When I was married it was a little easier. We were able to travel and basically do whatever. that was awesome being able to share my good fortune of having a steady income with someone. We did a lot together. now I just feel stuck.
I just pretty much stay home and watch tv and surf the web. I get bored. Im honestly kind of over the whole wrenching thing. thats all my life has been for 4 years.
The problem is I just dont want to do anything alone. I dont see the pleasure in it. I want to just roll out and go see more of this country before we as a country destroy it. I just dont know what to do or where to go.
My life for 6 years was all about Megan and I. Where would she like to go, what would she want to do. that was how i decided everything for years. Now i just dont knoow what I want to do. and I know doing it alone wont be the same. seems kind of boring. like i want to go see mt rushmore but I cant imagine going alone, looking at it and not having someone to turn to and talk about it.
Fawk it though, I definatly dont want to get caught up in sitting here on my ass and letting life pass me by.
I am going to sell everything i own and buy a camper and hit the road I think. It is going to be very hard for me to do this. Im actually scared a little. scared I dont know who I am or what i even enjoy anymore. I just know there has to be something better out there or at least something different.
I would give or do anything to have my Wife/life back but I just dont think that will ever happpen. It has been so long since I had to figure out what I want to do I have no idea. Nothing really brings me pleasure anymore. People suck for the most part and I dont like to deal with strangers and im not a very nice guy so i dont make friends easily. I feel i will end up on the road alone and just no desire to do anything.
you all think i got the world by the balls but it is more difficult than you know.
I will be listing a bunch of misc stuff for sale. what dont go i will put in storage.
I hope to leave in 90 days or so.
Just saying that has me worried. I have spent plenty of time on the road and it can be a lonley place. plenty of time to think and assess things.
opinions?
I have been medically retired from the navy for 10 years. Let me tell you, retirement isnt all it is cracked up to be. I really have no purpose in my life. it is hard to stay busy and satisfied. I tried many volunteer things. the most recent being the Fire Dept. it just isnt for me. it is interesting but im just not committed and i think as a fire fighter you should be.
When I was married it was a little easier. We were able to travel and basically do whatever. that was awesome being able to share my good fortune of having a steady income with someone. We did a lot together. now I just feel stuck.
I just pretty much stay home and watch tv and surf the web. I get bored. Im honestly kind of over the whole wrenching thing. thats all my life has been for 4 years.
The problem is I just dont want to do anything alone. I dont see the pleasure in it. I want to just roll out and go see more of this country before we as a country destroy it. I just dont know what to do or where to go.
My life for 6 years was all about Megan and I. Where would she like to go, what would she want to do. that was how i decided everything for years. Now i just dont knoow what I want to do. and I know doing it alone wont be the same. seems kind of boring. like i want to go see mt rushmore but I cant imagine going alone, looking at it and not having someone to turn to and talk about it.
Fawk it though, I definatly dont want to get caught up in sitting here on my ass and letting life pass me by.
I am going to sell everything i own and buy a camper and hit the road I think. It is going to be very hard for me to do this. Im actually scared a little. scared I dont know who I am or what i even enjoy anymore. I just know there has to be something better out there or at least something different.
I would give or do anything to have my Wife/life back but I just dont think that will ever happpen. It has been so long since I had to figure out what I want to do I have no idea. Nothing really brings me pleasure anymore. People suck for the most part and I dont like to deal with strangers and im not a very nice guy so i dont make friends easily. I feel i will end up on the road alone and just no desire to do anything.
you all think i got the world by the balls but it is more difficult than you know.
I will be listing a bunch of misc stuff for sale. what dont go i will put in storage.
I hope to leave in 90 days or so.
Just saying that has me worried. I have spent plenty of time on the road and it can be a lonley place. plenty of time to think and assess things.
opinions?
Eric. :rebel: